Sunday, April 23, 2006
On the Wings of trust, the story of the cloudless skyMy last 24hrs duty as a "extraordinary carrer" had ended this morning. I am in fact very anxious for this 1st and the last special duty. I am the most impt man for my Division!!! Well, perhap it was quite a easy duty yesterday. But yet, i had seen another sad story. I have seen a mother who has 3 children to take care of. These 3 children, the eldest is perhaps only 5 years old and the youngest i think is only few months old. the mother is in heavily finacial crisis. She couldnt find anymore money to feed her children left and she has not been eating a proper meal for days.She has been eating only leftover in the coffeeshop. She left with no chioce but to steal. In the end, she couldnt escape the punishment of the law. When the very moment i hear her story, my heart infact was sheding tear for her. And I am very guilty! Very guilty of how i greedy i was for the pass few days when i had my meals. This is another leasson that kept reminding me of my very own behaviour and how luxious i am!!For the past 6 years, this job had let me see all kind of people, things in the Singapore. To me, it's like letting me see the Six realm. However, from the time hits 6am, I have to say good bye to my childhood dream. I am leaving this one of my best carrer in my life. The exprience I have gain and the things i had seen, I will nv forget for the rest of my life. One of the many reasons for me leaving the place, is because i am over qualified. In fact i am still fighting between passion and the realitic world. But sad to say, the passion wasn't big enough to overcome that. Time managment is a real big issues. SBMY is my life also, I love SBMY as much as I love my carrer as well as i love my the other parts of my life.I have to let go one thing to move forward. I have to let go in order for me to go for my retreat. For my practical dharmma knowlege, I think i would be accpetable as least to me, But as for thorecial knowlege, i think i would not be good enough to teach anyone of you. I need to improve myself. I would think these six year would be good enough le. I have to put to a stop before i may regret for the rest of my life. By doing this, I may not have anymore pondering story to tell all of you here. But rest assure, i will definately upgrade myself to have more other things to make you guys think. Before i leave, on 14 MAy 2006, let go to the Zoo, I think i can get 8 tix, the rest we share among us, still cheaper alot ok. Let make this house outing successful. Take this outing as a reward for all the hard work you guys had put into the upcoming Vesak @ orchard and Vesak @ SBM as well as the camp of cos. Not to forget, you guys have finish your Exam le!!!! So pls make yourself free hor. Lawrence Lee
Simplicity overrode @ 11:22 AM
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